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Cheese (goes with the following wine)

How do you know if you need help, am I just being dramatic and over sensitive? I would never take my life, the will to live is too strong. However like most people I've thought about it. Some people think about a big show of it to make everyone feel bad. I feel like if I ever went there I'd try to go quietly. I might leave a note telling people I love them to give them some closure.  I would try to make it as easy for everyone else as possible.  Much more likely I'd take the same approach and move away, try to start over and just disappear quietly. I don't know why I'd want to run away but it's fun to think about sometimes.  But no, I need to get over myself and just fix my problems. I need to stop whining and man up. I need to stop hating myself

Things are changing

Ive been more confused by myself lately. I can't seem to fix my flaws but I still feel like change is around the corner. I hate many thing about myself and don't want to anymore, but I feel like a complainer even writing it. My life hasn't been bad or tragic. So why do I hate myself all the time. If only I could become the person I think I can be in my mind..... here's to change.